Book Review: First They Killed My Father

Loung Ung, First they Killed My Father, 2006. 238 pages.

Before travelling to Cambodia, I wanted to learn a bit about their recent history - what happened during the Khmer Rouge regime. This book was highly recommended as a memoir of someone who lived through those years.

The Statistics

1975: The Khmer Rouge take over. Families are separated, forced out of the city to work the farms. Estimates range, but at least 1.5 million were killed through executions, forced labour, or simply starved in the famine. Four years later, Vietnam invades, and ends the regime.

Cambodia Demographic Pyramid
Spot the outlier years. Source: CIA World Factbook

We can understand at an abstract level that the gap in this demographic pyramid represents a lot of suffering - children dying, years where people are too starved, overworked to bear children or produce milk.

The Details

The statistics are too abstract. They don't hit you the same way as does following the story of the suffering of one family, and hearing the details of how they tried to survive.

I'll give a short list of moments that stand out from the book:

  • Soldiers arriving in town. The family packing everything, abandoning their lives, fleeing. The terrifying details of how, exactly, do you empty Phnom Penh, and force hundreds of thousands of people into the countryside? By killing anyone who doesn't leave.
  • Loung's mother saying to use money as toilet paper, because money has been outlawed - even barter has been outlawed.
  • The slowly unfolding tragedy of not having enough food for the toddler in the family. First the toddler stops growing, then wastes away as the famine wears on.
  • A world without laughter or friendship - everyone encouraged to dob in their neighbours, so nobody dares talk to each other.
  • Fake hospitals; all the educated doctors & nurses had been killed, leaving only pretend infirmaries full of people waiting to die.
  • Famine driving villagers to eat wild, poisonous mushrooms. At one stage, a neighbour figures out she can eat earthworms.
  • Entire families choosing death by poison rather than continue.
  • State-encouraged racism, that forces the children to rub dirt on their faces to look less part-Chinese and more Khmer.
  • Training Loung as a child soldier, taught to shoot, stab and kill.
  • Vietnamese invasion and 'liberation' as a mixed bag, with vicious counter attacks and occupying soldiers committing terrible crimes.
  • Pirates, people smugglers, and refugee camps.

And that's just a quick smattering. There's many more details, and it's the details that gets you.

The Writing

It's a heck of a page-turner. Short chapters are dense with story. Months and years of famine and backbreaking labour are fast-forwarded, leaving a very slim, dense book, which zooms in on specific incidents.

There's moments where people are taken away by soldiers, presumably to be killed in mass graves, but the family never learns what happens. During these moments, Loung's imagination takes flight, and she describes imagined scenes of the executions. They're some of the most poignant moments of the book - the sadness of a daughter grappling with never getting closure - never knowing the fate of her family members.

The book is told and narrated from the perspective of a 5 year old girl. We learn about the Khmer Rouge through Loung's father's explanations to his daughter. Events are seen through 5-year-old eyes.

Root causes are hardly considered, outcomes not critiqued. The book begs the question, how do we stop this from happening again?

What can we do?

It's relevant today. Similar stories are unfolding now in South Sudan and Myanmar. But they're more-or-less off the radar, hardly anybody's noticing.

There's a debate going on today about the viability of 'regime change' after the recent debacles of US intervention in the Middle East. Armed invasion eventually deposed the Khmer Rouge, but it was hardly a panacea - it kicked off almost 13 years of civil war.

Part of the answer has to be diplomacy. Part of the answer has to be publicising these events, as Loung has done. We need journalists to cover atrocities and apply pressure to governments, to make governments think twice before committing atrocities like these. By increasing the political price of atrocities, you can make them less frequent.


I recommend the book, for anyone visiting Cambodia, or interested in hearing the details of one of the worst atrocities of recent years. It wasn't that long ago.

Mark Hansen

Mark Hansen

I'm a Software Engineering Manager working on Google Maps in Sydney, Australia. I write about software {engineering, management, profiling}, data visualisation, and transport.
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